Cosmic Consciousness
…until you drop everything you will never know Truth.
– Astavakra Gita
After many spiritual trials and tribulations, in 2005, I experienced a series of
spectacular visions and expressions of ‘All Creation’. This was perceived from
beyond the normal mind. Over time, more and more detailed information came to me
about what constituted ‘All That Is’.
Each experience gave me knowledge of Creation, the Universe and Source. I
knew I couldn’t have imagined them as I had no previous ‘mental frame of
reference’ to do so (nothing to compare the knowledge to- it was like
PURE NEW KNOWLEDGE)
These experiences came in stages.
First: I was sitting in a
‘small intimate spiritual meeting’ when I began to feel a shift in
consciousness.
I could feel something ‘big’ coming forth into my awareness. I felt a little
trepidation because it seemed so ‘large’. I recognized this familiar feeling
that preceded profound experiences. I always felt some hesitation because they
always impacted me quite strongly. Goose bumps, shivers up my spine, tears, a
sense of ‘awe’ , sacredness, and ‘knowingness’ all showed me these incidents
were ‘real’ and ‘True’, compared to anything I had heard of, imagined, or
read and I had researched much.
I couldn’t even speak to indicate that the group take a pause for a few
moments. Tears streaked down my face. My soul knew what was coming before my
mind. Suddenly, it seemed I was billions of miles from the Cosmos and witnessing
it as it appeared to be a tiny ball of sparkling lights. A two- dimensional,
circular opaque image of the entire cosmos appeared as a ghostly, white light,
before me. It seemed off in the distance from me about the size of a volleyball.
Beyond was Infinity. I wondered what I was to take note of this time.
The question struck my mind, “How could I be seeing this from so far
away?” Somehow I knew that it represented the ‘ongoing creation of the Cosmos’.
I knew that it was unfolding, but it just appeared as a vague, two- dimensional
painting, rather than anything of dynamic motion.
Then for the first time in my spiritual journey, I ‘heard’ something:
the deep resonating sound of “OM”. It reverberated through my body, my
mind, my spirit. It was deeper than my female voice could sing. I had been to
spiritual meditations and workshops where members chanted this sound. I knew it
had to do with God but I had NO idea what it represented. Now I knew.
This Sound represented the CREATION. (It was only later through research
that I found in spiritual articles that the sound ‘OM’ was referred to as the
‘Sacred Sound of Creation’). The Cosmos of all form was being created from a
Source beyond it.
Months passed:
I felt as if I was billions of miles beyond the cosmos again, but this
time I witnessed it being created and unfolding. The exhilarating, brilliance of
billions of sparkles of energy moved as a creative, living force. Planets,
galaxies, and universes, all appeared as a three-dimensional, unfolding motion
of fluidity. Lines of energy connected everything. It was alive! I could see the
perfect geometry of All That Is.
Dimensions upon dimensions, existed within the curved Cosmos.
New galaxy births materialized and evolved, and others dissipated as
they died out. It was an ebb and flow of creation and disintegration. To my
vision, it seemed this process was occurring in seconds as Evolution seemed sped
up in some way. Nothing imploded or exploded out of control. ALL was in perfect,
brilliant, harmonious balance. This was the ‘Dynamic Divine’. It was a live
creation, manifested from the stillness of Divine Love. All of this was
‘information’.
Even as this spectacular gift unfolded before me, I wondered if I had been
abducted and was seeing this from the viewpoint of some alien spaceship. My
analytical mind was forever active! Then my mental capacities realized that any
spaceship would have had to be billions of miles beyond the entire Cosmos. I
didn’t think that was possible. I could feel the harmony, the brilliance, and
the perfection. I could feel the ‘Truth’ of the experience.
Next I began to realize that the center of this multidimensional,
geometrically balanced creation, had a brilliantly lit center. The knowledge
struck me that beyond all Material Form, was the Source of it. I sensed
that this Source existed in the quietude of ALL That IS, and as well, permeated
all form.
From what appeared to be ‘Nothing, and Everything simultaneously, came the
medium from which all form was created. I was stunned by the gentle awareness
that this was LOVE and it permeated everything. The enormity of this touched me
deeply. Tears filled my eyes. My mind could barely comprehend this
‘Knowledge’.
Love created all Creation. Love permeated all Creation. This Brilliant
Lighted Cosmos was now in living, dynamic motion.
In that very moment, I felt like I would sink to my knees from the
profound purity, clarity, and illumination of it all, except for the fact that I
was already sitting. I was filled with the most prolific sense of gratitude! I
was filled with the knowledge that my tiny, little life amongst this splendour
of All Creation, was indeed ‘given’ to me from the LOVE of God. It was an
incredible feeling.
I couldn’t help but reflect on how precious life was, as it truly was
given to us from Source, the Highest, God, The God of our own understanding.
Thoughts barely registered in my mind. I was ‘created’ specifically, just like
every single atom of material form in the Cosmos. The realization was almost
more than my heart could handle. How did we not have this knowledge? How did we
not experientially know that we were created from Love? Our individual life was
specifically conceived and given form, by the Highest Being.
Truly, this ‘Knowledge’ validated to me the ‘existence’ of God.
The thought then came to me: ‘There must surely be purpose for my
existence”.
I needed time to assimilate this ‘Knowledge’.
With love to all,
Carolyn
ADDENDUM: I had these experiences in 2005 and in May, 2014 NASA created a simulation video of the Evolution of the Universe: My experience was very similar but the video was a very tiny portion of what I experienced as my perspective was from a far more reaching viewpoint. Also there was a KNOWING that ALL is a perfect harmony of evolution and dissipation, and the energy linking ALL, is LOVE.
- see this link for the video: http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/ap140512.html